Little notes.

23/08 

Suicide is dying from invisible fatal wound(s). Nobody knows you are suffering. After you die, they can't even know even when they cut you open. How did one person just die out of nowhere? Because of the wounds. You can't see, and I can't show you. 

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Sometimes what hurts you makes you hurt others.

27/08

You can't blame anyone, it's what I learn today.

27/08

I wanted to go home but no place feels like home

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I know I will miss this place. I thought this would be my final stay. I thought I would stay here forever. I will miss you, that's all I know. That's all I have to say.

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I keep going around to find you, my love. The poet in me has never died.

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Staying here, idling, is probably, the loudest, craziest, way, to claim back a bit of my screaming broken chest. It is bad, yes, it is mine still, anyway. Is is better to live up to expectation? Oh I know, only if it is my own. Is it bad is it good? Am I hurting anyone? By anyone I mean those I love. You are not supposed to, hurt your parents. And that's it. But sometimes, yes, sometimes, if the pain you are causing yourself is so great you might die, then, maybe, you can hurt them a little. And I know by doing that, you are damaged too. Oh darling, living this life requires destruction. Not too much, if you can. If you can, hurt a little, and kiss it away. Kiss it more. Kiss it. Kiss your bloody, swollen hand. Kiss your mother's wound. Put down your knife. Are you in pain? Darling, anyway, don't let the world scare you.

28/08

Things unfold with time. Little by little. You'll know when it feels just right and your heart has no fear.

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It is rare for me to make decision on my own. But I'm glad I did.

17/09

Humans can be sweet, cute, and surprisingly innocent.

unknown date

Darling, this is where I leave you. You are on your own now.

today

(This one is for my little brother)

When you said to me that you didn't know what the meaning of life is, for you, and you sounded so sad and out of breath, I just wanted to tell you that you don't have to do anything much, really, life is, for you or me, please just live. You can live first and foremost, you can live my dear. Can you please look at me and listen to me when I tell you that your meaning in this life is just to live? Live darling. Live, before anything else.