And you will never know.

I crave him. His giant body. His warmth. His calm, quiet, undisturbed energy. I want his arms to wrap me up, pull me toward his core, keep me there, do not let me go. I desperately want someone who doesn't want to let me go. I crave human connection, the basic and essential one, the inherent, the built-in, where we are practically one, when I know you are inside me and you are holding me, and there's literally no distance between us. I crave, I crave, for someone to come to me that close, and hold me there, and kiss me all over, and tears will fall on both of us, like silent rain that falls and dissolves into the ocean, like snowstorms that ever come and go on Mt. Everest. No sound, no echo, no nothing. Just us and I'm inside you, close to your heart, and when you breathe, I will grow like a thousand roses.